A House Part Three

I live in a house where not everything was complete bad and out of control. I mean I have had some good memories here. So today, I'm not gonna focus on the negative, I'm going to focus on the positives.

In this house, I always had some pretty good Christmas's. I usually gotten everything I asked for. "She" always told me she wanted me to have a better Christmas than what she had. Which is understandable. What ever I didn't have in my life, I will most defiantly go the extra mile to make sure my child have it. Like... A car at the age of 16. That is one of my biggest gifts I want to give my child. This does not include a meal every night and ect. Those are things your child needs. I live in a house where I have taken many road trips with "her". We been to New York, New Jersey, Atlanta, VA, SC and Washington DC. Probably some more place that I cant remember off the back. I always liked when we would spend time together and actually get along. There's nothing better than living in a house where you get along with your parent/spouse. I also loved it when we would go out to dinner and talk. "She" is very fancy lady I must say! She don't do the little "cheap" restaurants. She have to go to place like Cheesecake Factory or McCormicks, you know, those type of places. So, when we go out for dinner, trust me, we ate well!

I live in a house when I usually only spent Holidays with "her". One year I had a ex boyfriend over on Thanksgiving and Christmas and this year I spent New Years Eve and New Years Day with my current boyfriend. I remember that Christmas with my ex... oh gosh. It was okay for the most part. Only thing about it is that I kept begging my mom to give me the money to buy him a present. This was when I was in the 11th grade I believe. Maybe 10th, I cant remember. Anyway though, she kept putting it on and off. The only thing I wanted to get him was some really cute shirts because he absolutely loved T-Shirts with those prints and ish on them. You know what I am talking about? Okay. So yeah, Christmas eve came around and I was like "HEY! We need to get him something !!" She still never went out to get him anything. So Christmas morning came around and I was like ".... he is coming and I don't have anything to give him..." She pops up and was like "Oh Gosh! I forgot" So her boyfriend at the time, gave me one of his NEW watches to give to him. In my head, I'm like, thank God but than again I was like this is shitty. I cant believe I have to give him someone else item! He wanted shirts! I wanted to give him shirts! So he comes into the house and I hug him and everything (sighs). He looked just so happy, while I'm looking like -.- and -_- . In this house on that Christmas, I was dreading giving my ex his gift. I open mine and he got what I wanted ... plus more -_-. I handed him a little small bag stuffed with red paper that I found... and as he was looking inside... I turned my head away from him and my heart was beating... fast. I couldn't believe I had given him the gift. Sometimes I wish I would of just been straight up honest with him and told him what was really going on. So he pulled it out and looked at it. He smiled and he said he liked it. He put it on and everything and he actually liked it. Even tho he liked it, I still didn't feel right giving it to him because it didn't come from me! It wasnt from my heart! On the flip side though. We had a pretty great Christmas in this house. We ate, played around, watched TV, it was very nice. But I knew that watch was gonna come back and haunt my ass!! His parents and brother laughed at him and told him it was a used watch. I told him it was never worn but he said their were scratches on the back of the watch (-_-) just my luck. "Her" ex boyfriend gave him a watch that he had already worn instead one of his new ones.

The shit that happens in this house....

When I wasn't having holidays with a boyfriend. I was in this house having them with "her". They were never bad ones and on that one day we manage to get threw without fussing or drama. Kudos to us!

You think its the end of this house? Nope, you only got a taste. A House Part Four .... Coming Soon.