I tend to have the worst luck with school. I am suppose to be in school now but "you know who" is in school though. Guess she did not want to spend her hard earned paycheck for me to go to school, huh? We will get to that in a minute though.
Well I always wanted to be a Computer Programmer. I'm like a geek when it come to computers, especially hardware. It changed when I only took computer classes in high school though. I was totally burnt out by time I graduate. I wanted to go to a 4 year college but I did not make the grades to go. So, I went to a local community college about 15 mins from my house. That first semester started off GREAT. . . Well.. yeah, it was alright, maybe not great (laughing in the inside). I met a lot of people and out of those "a lot" of people.. I'm only friends with one now. Note: Don't forget I'm talking about that first semester of college. Truth be told, I failed all my classes but one. Why do I feel that one is not my lucky number? (Ha). I don't know what was wrong with me back then. I was a total wreck! I didn't know what I want, I didn't even want to be a computer programmer anymore. I ended up taking a break spring semester to figure out what I wanted to do. My mom was telling me to go to school to be a Pharmacy Technician. I didn't want to do that. I thought it was going to be hard and I THOUGHT I wasn't good in math, so in my head I didn't want to give the wrong amount of dose and all that ish. I didn't even know what a Pharmacy Technician did, it just didn't sound fun at all. So, that fall semester I ended up doing online classes at a college in Greenville. Just about a hour and 15 mins from my house. I failed those classes too BUT it was not MY FAULT. I know people always try to blame others if something didn't go their way but just hear me out on this one. I did my financial aid, "she" thought it would be a good idea to put down my dad information just in case her income was to high for me to get F-Aid. Everyone knows it takes about a month for your F-Aid to go threw. Well once it came back they ask for important documents that I could not show because for one he is so far away and two, I didn't know how to get the ish! I ended up having to go back and make corrections and re-apply for it again! Which took another month! I didn't get my F-Aid until the week school started back. I had to BEG my mom to pay for my classes! Something she didn't want to do but she did anyways. The catch was, she wasn't going to pay for the books. How could I go to school with no books? NONE! Why would you pay for my classes but not my books? So, what had happen was, I got drop from all of my classes (-_-) AND I had to pay her back the money when my finical aid check and student loan check came threw mail. It took 4 weeks for my checks to come and they had already drop me from my classes because basically I had 4 weeks worth of zeros that they wouldn't let me make up.
I felt that I didn't need to pay her back any money. WHY? because she knew I was gonna get drop from classes without those books. Why would you pay for my classes and not my books? You lost nothing, I did! Now I am on student probation and have a terrible grade point avg and not only that if I ever want to go back to that school, I would have to pay for those classes out my pocket because if you take a class and failed, F-AID isn't gonna pay for them again. OH, wait! I owe that school 432 dollars now because those teacher drop me after the time I was suppose to be drop, so I owe F-AID that money back.
Well, that spring (again) I did not go to school. I did score a job at Walgreens though. That's another topic though. I'll have to blog about that later. So in August, I decided to go BACK to school AGAIN. But then, (-_-) I found out "she" didn't pay the student loan off that we had got from when I was there my first year of school. This is when I decided to go to school to be a Pharmacy Technician. I mean I HAD to do something because Walgreens was a piece of shit job and I wanted to be closer to my boyfriend. I have a AMAZING blog about my boyfriend and I coming up soon. Anyway though, I had owe 828 dollars to that college. WTF? That was the biggest shock of my life. I remember laying on the couch and I broke down (mentally) I wasnt crying just yet, I was just thinking. I was thinking about how all these obstacles kept jumping in the way of everything. Why ME? WHY? I could some-what tell "she" felt bad too. She told me she had paid all that money off a long time ago but she didn't and since it was in my name... It didn't fuck HER up it fucked ME up. I don't know if its on my credit but I am pretty sure it is -_- . (Sighs, and looks away from the computer)
Well, since she felt bad (I'm assuming), she paid the 828 dollars so I could go back to school. Again... I had to pay her back. I had 2 jobs my whole life. Every job I NEVER had a pay check to myself. I always had to give her 50 dollars or pay her back for something. Which, the 50 dollars I seriously didn't mind. It was just at my first job I was only getting paid 160-200 dollars a pay period (every 2 weeks). I'm young and there was always something I wanted ALWAYS. Maybe I was the one being selfish about the 50 dollars you know? Anyway though, I paid her back most of the money but I started thinking about why should I pay u almost a thousand dollars, when you told me that it was already paid for? You clearly told me you paid all that money back. I am pretty sure a person knows if they paid almost 1k off. She told her ex boyfriend (the one I was talking about in the last post), that I wasted all her money. How though? You didn't pay for anything? That was a student loan that CLEARLY I HAD TO PAY BACK. When I ask her about it she said she didn't say that. I seen it for myself that she did but I didn't tell her that. I still owe her 2-3 hundred more dollars and yes, I am going to pay her back. Shit, she did me a favor to pay it off once you think about it because if she wouldn't had done that than I would still be sitting here without any type of education.
Well, the Pharmacy Technician program was only 4 months long and I passed with a B. I met a lot of cool people in that class. That's another blog though. Its Spring semester (again) and I couldn't go back to school because "she" wouldn't pay the school in Greenville the 400 dollars so they could transfer my transcript back to the college near my house (sighs). Its just something about those spring semesters. I don't have a job because she wont let go out of the county I stay in and no, I don't have my own vehicle. I live in a small country county that only have 4 pharmacies.
I don't know what to do. . . . I am stuck. In this hell hole. This hell country county and I cant move forward... At all.
I'm broken... and broke. (-_-)
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