Who Am I?

Who am I? I cant possibly tell you who I am... I don't even know who I am... Yet. I am still in that process in "finding" myself. Learning yourself can be the hardest thing a person have to do. I remember in middle school, I went from being Gothic to Punk, and from being Punk to being Girly. I went from wearing T-shirts to jeans, to wearing jeans and dresses. 

As I grow, I can say I find out more about myself. I never notice how bad I worry. I am a very paranoia! I think the worst before the best. I over think things that really doesn't need to be thought about. I cry a lot. Yes, I know, I'm like the biggest baby ever! I have such a soft heart. Even when I prepare myself for the worst some how I always still end up getting crush. I also plan a lot. I'm just now learning that things never go as planned. Even though I KNOW THIS... I still plan! I should try to set goals instead of planning, but its something that I would have to grow out of. 

Another thing about me, I have terrible thoughts. I can be smiling right at you but in my head I could be thinking something terrible or making funny jokes about you. Its not that I don't like a person, its just how I think. Especially when I mad, oh boy! I would HATE for a person to be inside my head. My boyfriend tells me that I am a big little kid, I watch Cartoons... 24/7. At times I start acting like a child. I don't know why... Its not that I have a child mind because trust me... I DON'T... Its just that I am such a playful person and when I get into those moods its like... I don't know.. Maybe I get a little too playful (shrugs). 

I am a forgiving person. You can keep hurting me over and over again, and I will keep forgiving you over and over again but people really do have a breaking point. Once I have mine, than I really don't want to have anything else to deal with you. I mean I'll always be casual but that's all it will be. Everyone can be a little judgmental until you get to know someone or something. That is me, not all the time but only to things out the ordinary... Hard to explain what I am by that though. I am a great friend and I expect the same in return! When I love, I love hard! 

So, (takes a deep breath, in and out) that is just a little about my personality. People get things they LIKE mixed up when it come to telling about THEMSELVES. Ill make a blog about the things I like a little later. Time to get back to our scheduled program =)